I have such a hard time dealing with mistakes I make. I get so obsessed and down about them. I don’t know why I get so caught up and dwell and linger on even the little, trivial mistakes I make. I just expect so much from myself that one mistake throws me completely off. Like I can’t forgive myself or I say to myself why didn’t I remember that or why am I so stupid or what will they think or what will they say or why couldn’t I be better, etc etc. All this negative swirling vortex of doom thoughts all over some simple mistake I probably should just let go of. Bleh. I think it’s the Asian in me always thinking I need to be perfect or else the rest of the process doesn’t count or won’t be worth as much. God, release me from this because I know You value the entire process, even the smudges. 

Amen.